malam tu aku tengok dia biasa saja...cuma mungkin paper yang sangat susah pagi tadi juga emosi yang berubah ketika "cuti bulanan" buat dia tampak letih dan seperti tidak ada mood...aku pandang dia...dalam diam...dia mengalirkan airmata...earphone ditanggalkan....ipod ditolak ke tepi...dalam diam dia mengesat airmata yang mengalir...
"beb,pehal ni??kau ok...?",aku cuba memecah kesunyian.
"setahun sudah berlalu...dan hari ini aku dengar suara dia....",tangisannya berbaki..aku masih kurang mengerti apa yang ingin disampaikannya...ipod disebelah dicapai lemah..
"tadi aku bukak email aku...lepas tu yahoo hantar banyak email notification cakap aku ada voicemail...dalam banyak-banyak tu..ada satu voicemail dari dia..dan aku cuba bukak nak dengar...",ipod dihulurkan pada aku...butang pada skrin ipod aku tekan.....
"hello...ayang...nape tak angkat call...."
aku pandang dia..airmata dia kembali mengalir perlahan..."beb,lupakanlah kenangan 7 tahun tu...dia da lama pergi...dia takkan kembali lagi...dia dah tak ada dekat bumi ni lagi...dia dah mati...dan aku tak nak jiwa kau turut mati diheret kenangan kau dan dia...macam mana voicemail ni still ada dan yahoo hantar hari ni??".
"aku tak tau...yang pasti itu perbualan setahun yang lalu....."...............
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penah jugak macam ni.
malam tu, dye call, tapi voice mall sebab dye nak cakap sumthing sebab malam sebelum tu dye ada janji nak call nak cakap benda.
besok tengahari dye dah tak ada.
ni dua watak dalam satu kan..
sayup terasa ;(
maha hebat kisahnya
pegi ke 'daerah'lain dah 7 tahun..
perbualan setahun yg lalu....
aku faham tentang nih tapi aku masih konpius...sungguh,aku masih mencuba kepercayaan aku pada ketidakmustahilan..
da 5 kali taip
5 kali padam
speechless seketika.
terasa pedih.
pernah alami seperti kau
tapi dia sms dan dia betul2 call
walaupn dah bertahun,nombor berbeza
tapi suara dia aku tak pernah lupa.sakit kan... =(
ooh, pelik tapi benar
herm, moga dia tabah :)
something wrong dgn yahoo klau notification tu patut hantar setahun yang lalu....
oke emosi kuat melanda..sobss..
korang...nah tissue..lap air mata lap inguss cpt..
orang yang mati dengan hidup ni sama tak?
speechless~
sedih. dia call tp just utk mrh2 psl my blog and my FB. semuanya sbb gf bru dia yg jd stalker n ckp mcm2. T__T
has it been a year, che' lumut? ... either time has moved really fast, leaving us in it's wake or we're still standing there, unmoved, still struggling to blank out those events that has caused much pain in our lives...
was taking the time, winding down, reading all your old posts from last year. had a smile on my face. honestly, has it been a year?
remember, your post about halloween, where everyone was very much concerned not about the post but more of where the 'fork' rest it's point. that was hilarious. XD
or when you mentioned all those weird things you did while coping with exam stress? (masak nugget dengan air masak. that was funny. heh)
or the time where you went jalan2 suku malaysia, doing rounds, paying your dues as a 'minor celebrity'? kidding, kidding. =P
i guess, it has been a year. a whirlwind of a year. nothing bad happened but nothing good either. just time passing by... c'est la vie, i guess.
eventually, all the pieces will come together, hopefully. in the mean time, i'll just leave you with a small, (meaningless, perhaps) gift. some of my favourite lullabies.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lW_JMBWd-c4
"love is blindin' when the timing's never right. oh, who am i to beg for difference, findin' love in just an instant. well, at least i've tried. well, i've tried, i've tried..."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i8wILgjsFqY
"and it takes no time to fall in love but it takes you years to know what love is. and it takes some fears to make you trust, it takes those tears to make it rust, it takes the dust to have it polished..."
may you find the peace you're looking for, che' lumut. Insya Allah. :)
tatkala hati dilanda sunyi..
kau kembali..
terbang ke dunia dimensi..
butiran mutiara jernih menerjah..
whai sang perintih hati..
dakaplah
kerna dia masih disisi...=)
sedih :|
dem. dah, jgn sedih. pandang depan. hati mungkin mati, tapi nyawa masih ada. hiduplah.
pelik.
Mugkin hari ini lebIh baiK dari semalaM...yaNg lepaS kenanG2 ia sebagaI kenanGan walaupOn ia BerubaH tapi mungkin ia lebIh indaH...
oppsss sowi terlebiH sudah...huhu..
smIle like a sUn ...=P
SAMA!!
tp aku baru setahun
dia pergi ke 'dunia' yg buat aku sakit hati+merana+trase bodoh+benci+dendam...
Ya Allah,ampunkan aku...
Seriously...it hurts...
haishhhhh.... jgn la wat aku pun turut terasa sedihnyeee... lately mmg asik ingat si dia... uwaaaaaa
kau berjaya buat mata sepet aku masuk habuk dengan tiba2....
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